Meg Ryan comes clean and talks frankly about her divorce, the affairs in her marriage, and her baby girl in the new InStyle.

On Dennis Quaid having affairs behind her back: “Dennis was not faithful to me for a long time, and that was very painful. I found out more about that after I was divorced. [But] I am not a victim. I was there. I was in that marriage for a really long time.”

On her divorce from Dennis: “It was also incredibly liberating. Now I was utterly free. I didn’t have to care about what people thought. I have gotten to do what I guess I secretly wanted to do. Be totally under the radar and live my life.”

On her affair with Russell Crowe in 2000: “Russell didn’t break up the marriage. I was a mess. I hurt him too at the end. I couldn’t be in another long relationship. It wasn’t the time for that. So I got out… My time as a scarlet woman was really interesting. As painful as it was, it was also incredible liberating. Now I was utterly free. I didn’t have to care about what people thought.”

On her daughter Daisy, a baby girl from China, whom she adopted three years ago: “I don’t feel like I adopted a child. I feel like I just got this unbelievable companion. Daisy is brilliant. This kid says things every day that make you just stop and stare at her.”